My Beautiful Beau

Well its been a long time since I have posted but I feel like I need to talk. I have been though a lot since i last posted my baby is nearly 2! He is a very active boy likes running!! and we went to the park today and played soccer, he gets so much joy from just running around and it makes you think when do we loose that joy? And why do we? Having such an interest in life and all the small things adults pass by. It is my aim where i can to stop and smell the roses or eat the wood chips with my boy (not so the later). Its hard knowing that I only have these precious few years with him to guide him, nurture his talents, expose him to new challenges and teach him right and wrong. And its about this time I start thinking of my own future and what I am going to do...I need to get creative and its been a struggle ... It's easier to put this out there and not hide away because the point of this blog in the first place was to help other people who may also struggle with becoming a new parent. Its going to be part of my recovery to blog so no more 15 month gap between blogs...promise. Here is the little man x 

in an effort to continue...

In an effort to continue i shall start from today...i will fill in as i remember bits but the daunting task of recounting the past few months (with baby brain)has me apprehensive an unsure. 


So today is Saturday and the sun is finally out the Gods heard my Facebook status "I want Sun" so i took Beau for a walk in his buggy, his buggy is a version of the moutian buggy generously gifted to us. As the wee man now has head control i am thinking of changing the seat from lying flat to the big kid seat (they grow up so fast) because as  have recently noticed he hates lying down, and strains to sit up clunching his tiny abs and grunting- he is so keen to explore but can only do it from mums lap at present, so I am going to try him in the baby sling using the kangaroo hold which he should enjoy.


Tummy time has become a challenge, my PEPE (plunket parent education programme) nurse says baby has to do it four times a day in order to strengthen neck and arm muscles, also i read that because we are now sleeping babies on their backs they need the tummy time so they don't get flat head. he hates it because he gets so frustrated at not being able to lift his head we have to disguise TT by doing it on a swiss ball, or propping him on pillows (which makes it easier for them to lift their head) with the after bath massage.

Beau @ 12 weeks having his post bath massage

Ricky is away this weekend so I am all alone feeling what single parent life would be like...lonely but i get all the smiles :)

A child is born

Hi, I am here to share my experiences of motherhood. I will try and be honest and share the information and advise i have received, not only record this so i don't forget the little things, but so i may help another new parent going through the same thing.  One thing I have found is everyone has advise and you need to just pick and choose what works for you because ( it is so true)EVERY BABY IS DIFFERENT!

 My beautiful Beau was born on the 4th July 2010. I loved being pregnant... the expanding belly , wonder and joy as I felt those first few movements at 14 weeks, the nerves and anticipation. I know people say it all the time but it's true nothing will ever prepare you. And as my 12week old  sleeps I will endeavor to share with you the joys and frustrations of a first time kiwi mum living in Auckland.

I can only do this now, as those first few weeks was a shock to the system, not only my body getting over the trauma of childbirth, but slowly catching up on lost sleep (as i didn't sleep for the 3 days following) and the constant demand on your time a new born requires My waters broke at 9.30pm and he was born 9.30am the next day, a song compared to some of the horror stories you will hear.

Beau Hayden Sayster 3hrs old

He came out a pretty attractive boy, 8.3lb (3.75kg) I just could not comprehend that this little man was the thing living inside me for 10 months! A very surreal experience- its different for everyone to me it was surreal- i didn't feel the overwhelming love that you hear about...just amazement i think.

It was that first day when Ricky left Birthcare to get some things we (he) had forgot (phone charger) that it hit me, I didn't know what the hell I was doing! I read the pregnancy books so wrapped up in what developments my baby was making week to week in the womb, but really neglected the fact he would be a living, breathing, feeding machine at the end of it.

Beau was (and still is) a very sucky baby and wanted to be on the breast nearly every waking moment, at the start breastfeeding is extremely painful, he had great suction, and i had poor technique which resulted in cracked nipples, owwwwwwwww!!!! Lanolin was good but nothing can really help, I would suggest getting all the help and advise you can before you give birth, and demand to see a lactation consultant on that first day.And make sure you are going home to a relaxed and happy home on the third day when your milk comes in because on top of sleep deprivation those hormones make you a bubbling mess. This is just my first of many rants on breastfeeding as I was admitted to the hospital when Beau was 2 weeks then again at 4 weeks because of two bad cases of Mastitis.

His first bath at home day 4

But as the days progressed we slowly and surely got in sync with each other, from the start he was a very good natured baby, with amazing dark eyes that made me melt.